Transgender is a term and topic that has become popular in the recent years. Now I could quote text book definitions all day long and completely bore some people. So I will not do that, because being transgender is much more than a definition, it is life. So what does being transgender mean? What does it mean to me?
Being transgender means that someone is transitioning to make their outside match their inside. Whether that is transgender woman or a transgender man, it basically means the same. The two genders have their own separate processes of transitioning, and dysphoria.
For me this process started long ago around the age of five. Now I know some of you are trying to figure out how could I have possibly known? Well I did not know that I was transgender, nor did I even know what transgender was, it was 1991. What I did know was that something was different about me and that I enjoyed playing with girl toys. Time progressed on to the age of ten and my mind started to turn even more, wishing that I could change. I remember praying every night for something spiritual or magical to happen. Something that would be so major that I would wake up my true self and not stuck in a body. By the age of fifteen it began to get even harder for me to hide myself, which would have been around 2002. There were times that I would be told to stop spending so much time in the bathroom, that I was spending more time getting ready than my sister. Even with it all I continued to keep everything buried until 2016.
In 2016, I started my transition. What finally pushed me was depression, and the feeling of not being able to keep going any longer. The truth had to be known, and could not wait any longer. So I started my transition, because what it means to me is that being myself is very important. Being my true self was the only way I would be able to live and love. They say that if you can not love yourself, how are you gonna love anyone else. Long ago I knew what I wanted and now I am making all of those thoughts a reality.
Everyone’s transition is different, and we all have those points that push us into our transition. What we need to remember is that we are not alone in this. We do not have to go around our lives alone and depressed. We may not be able to have all of our surgeries done when we want to, but we can support each other in that journey. Everyone needs to have someone to talk to. If anyone that is reading this is struggling with coming out or transitioning, feel free to comment and ask questions. I will help in everyway that I can.